I have had many, many things happen in the last few months. I am not going into those, only that I had a choice. I could let these things break me, define me, or strengthen me. For a time, I wasn't sure which it would be. Now...I know.
If you know me, you know I am passionate about first and foremost my family. Marriage is my most valued commitment, Jason is my very best friend and my partner in all that I do and all that I am. Our son Trevan is the most amazing bright light...you have to meet him to even have a clue what I mean. He has something in him words cannot do justice.
If you know me, you also know that I somehow have lost myself in the past years. The titles of Mrs. Jaques, Mommy, Nuclear Medicine Technologist, sister, daughter, .... Holli got lost. I lost her. My health, my happiness, my anything came last. That was completely my doing, and it just happened...as it does to many, dare I say MOST, women.
I started taking Advocare products in September, and my life has done a 180. I still have weight to lose, but I am the best me I have ever been. I am whole...I am healthy...I have ambition and drive and my favorite part of the day is no longer bedtime. I am not going into the wonderful world of my newfound love...I could happily talk about it all day long. It's helped me, my husband, my marriage, my friends, my family, it's real.
I knew that after what happened in the past...that I was done letting life happen. I was back in control. I was MAKING life happen. I had a few false starts, it isn't easy, but I am loving this journey. God has put me in this position for a reason. I am in control, well, HE is, but I am finally listening. Tomorrow, I start a running program. Tuesday, I sign up for my first 5k.
I have made enough in the last month with my new business to pay my mortgage and one car payment. With something I 100% enjoy, and I have done it by helping people I care about reach their own health, wellness, and financial goals. My husband is my partner. My best friend is my mentor. My career is better because I have the energy to be there at 5am and go strong all day long. I am surrounded by God fearing men and women daily.
Life is beautiful. I am blessed beyond measure. 2012 is my best year yet...because I am MAKING it that way. My goals are not just dreams. They are coming true. I am so thankful. I hit my knees in prayer daily for allowing me to go thru the hard times, for allowing me to yell at Him, scream at Him, blame Him...and then beg Him for forgiveness. Through His forgiveness of me, I was able to forgive someone I never thought possible...and the weight lifted from that...
life is just great.
Please, watch me this year. If you are skeptical of anything I am doing, it doesn't offend me. Just watch .And for those of you who embraced me, you have no idea what it meant.
Enough for now...I just needed to get this out.
God bless you all. I can't wait to run tomorrow. Ankle splint and all.
